Day 15

I drank way to much last night… but h still think I did decent in that challenge… I honestly really hope I win… if we weren’t coming up to the final 8 I would throw it in the fire but then I’ll probably be a target… but I really wanna throw it into the fire

So if I win I don’t think I’m gonna throw it into the fire… I think right now I really am protected on all sides and the sides are targeting each other. So I think I’ll just let them duke it out… 

Side note! I finished my Halloween decorating today and I’m so proud of myself 

Super cute right? 

I also have been debating on reaching out to Bella about making a final two… I don’t know who I want to actually take to final two if I get that far.

Ruby and I have been day one… so that’s been awesome if we make it because like holy poop, we have been each other’s person since day one… but I think I’d lose to her.

Yimo has yet to lie to me that I know of.. he’s been loyal and I think it would mean a lot to him.

Willy, Jessica, Zia I would lose.

Ash is sweet but I think I would lose against ash too

Shemar I think I could beat but I haven’t really had a connection with him and I think I would want to either win or lose against someone who I’ve had a genuine connection too.

But Bella would be fun because her and I have played similar games… but I kinda think it would be fun to be like “Ha you all thought we were playing for 6/7th… look at us now”

I can’t believe I scored so low this makes me question my entire career

I thought yours was so cute <3. Also your door would scare me I wouldnt wanna go inside LMAO <3 love it

Kim Spradlin wrote:

I thought yours was so cute <3. Also your door would scare me I wouldnt wanna go inside LMAO <3 love it

Thank you 🥺 and yea I don’t go out the door often mainly the garage I get too scared

I legit feel so guilty in this game 🥺 Shemar has been extremely kind with me since the beginning. Voting for him was extremely hard, and now I just feel absolutely awful. I know it’s going to get more and more difficult as the comp goes on… but I still feel so guilty. Shemar came off as harsh… but to me he was just misunderstood. 

I just feel so guilty especially because I don’t think he will leave, which makes me feel more guilty

Aldo I feel really guilty because I think Ruby is leaving… and I don’t want her to leave either I didn’t vote for her because she’s my girl but something is happening and her or jess are probably gonna go

I’m so upset because I really wanted to be four strong going into the finals but it just didn’t happen. 

And I feel like it’s partially my fault if Ruby goes because of what I told Jess I didn’t mean for Jess to spiral but she did and I feel so awful about it