Welcome to your Confessional!

Today actually feels like Day 1. The inactives are gone and everybody here I'm sure has some deep connection of some kind. 

Thankfully, I feel like I'm set up nicely with the majority of people and, Wendy just slipped into my DMs, so that's fantastic. If we do go to tribal, it probably will be Wendy but, if not, it's gonna be worth solidifying a relationship with her so I can get whatever info she may have!

Four challenges. FOUR losses. Because FOUR people can't be bothered to turn up. I'm in the UK. It's almost 2am. I've been staying up to around 3am but these people can't show at their 8pm?! 

I'm so fed up of losing! Nevel gotta go.

Why did I wake up to Peppa and Issa throwing their game down the toilet to try and save Nevel? On the hopes Wendy would vote with them all the way to final 7? No no no no no. We keep Lucifer as he’s the more loyal one - we make a new seven - and we carry on with our plan.

Andddd I just got swap-fucked. Today is abhorrent.

I love trying to get SQ tokens from everyone.

Andddd relax. For now.

I feel like I've cemented something really solid with Tweety this morning, which is great because we've never been on the same tribe and we've spoken minimum game with each other. We don't BS one another and that's what I look for in partners in this game.

I'm also pretty sure I owe my life in this game to the other four in 5 Beauties - Lindsey, Peppa, Cara and Beth - that's in trust order by the way  Lindsey and Peppa sent me 90 tokens between them, that's insane!

Then of course I also got 30 from SpongeBob, who I absolutely adore, but is a major threat when it comes to end-game.

That's six people I think I can rely on without a doubt. That feels really good.

Lucifer is actually so fucking stupid, I wish the person leaking info to him would jump ship.

The idiot told me yday  he had 88 points, after Issa's vote off.

Now, he's saying he has none and he transferred them to someone before Issa's vote off.

He's so shit at keeping his lies in order.

I am either being played like a fiddle here, or I have singlehandedly infiltrated this tribe and spearheaded a vote-out against poor Indy.

I hope it's the latter.

Well, I felt good for all of five seconds. A fucking joint tribal?! I hate you guys.

I love you though

I feel like this is the cycle that will truly define my game. It will either sink me, or give me a compelling story to tell if I'm lucky enough to make it to the end.

The solid group I still want to be a part of - that with Lindsey, Cara, Tweety, Peppa and myself - is gunning for Indy this round, as of this moment. I managed to push them away from Jack.

Cara was the one who has this major intense focus on getting Indy out. So, I went to Indy and told him that she is gunning for him. But not this round. This round, the vote is on Marceline.

So, I've submitted my vote for Marceline. When the numbers don't add up, I can pin it on Beth, because she's already betrayed us once. This is assuming she actually doesn't betray us again, which is still a possibility.

If I can balance this just right, I'll be able to play both sides. I'll be able to show Indy I voted Marceline no matter WHAT happens at tonight's tribal. I'll burn Beth's connection to our group by framing her for the votes not adding up. And I'll still be trusted by my core group of five.

This could be a dumb move at the very first merge tribal but, I kinda do want Marceline to go tonight.

Wish me luck.

Not the poor women talking periods in a room with me.

I now feel how Sebas felt in The Circle US Season 1 when he was in the girls chat ffs.

If that fucking explosive lands on me I'm going to cry. Exposing my vote when I'm making MY MOVE would be fucking tragic. Please Jesus have it be used on somebody else.

Well fuck my life.

I feel like I'm fucked no matter which direction I go in now. Beth is a fucking snake... Good for her. I'd vote for her if she made it to the end no doubt.

Now, I have to figure out why the explosives were used on me. My guess? One of the following.

Scenario 1: Indy told them I'd exposed Cara going after him. He thought I'd vote Marceline so he got someone on that side or did it himself, to use explosives on me and cut me off from that side.

Scenario 2: Indy's side didn't believe I was voting Marceline. They got proved wrong. But, does that get me in with them? We'll see, but highly doubtful, and I'll very much be on the bottom there if so.

I'm gonna continue to fight but honestly, I'm exhausted. It might be time up for Gale Weathers.

Alas, at least we made Jury! An accomplishment in of itself.

Okay... I just have to survive each round as it comes at this point. I'm gonna try and get Cara, Tweety and Peppa's points. Then I'm gonna haul ass outta here with Constantine's book for a round.

Okay I'm actually glad Tweety put a stop to me asking for points cos I don't wanna do that this round, if at all. For now anyways. I may be safe if we can put focus elsewhere. WHY is Beth such an annoying TWAT!

That Marceline vote MAY have actually worked in my favour...