Good morning, castaways!

Quick confessional for today because I am so busy that I cannot stand it.  THANK GOD WE HAVE A NIGHT OFF.

Last night I tried for hours to stay in the comp.  Had it been a Friday, I would have pushed myself.  Had to be up at 5am so...meh.

While I would like to take a shot at Tweety or Peppa, Beth feels badly about voting out someone who tried so hard.  I will not, in anyway, shape or form, upset Beth.  Same for Wendy.  They are my core group amidst all of these other core groups.  You know, I haven't even stopped to think about it, but other than Lucifer I think everyone else in my group of 5 would take me to the finals, which is insane.   Working a social game in Survivor has been SO MUCH EASIER than doing it in Big Brother.  Knock on wood, but I seem to be thriving here. 

We bought that damned suit.  Tried to get Lucifer in on it but he is looking out for number one, and we all know that about him.  He's not a great liar but he does love to have his ego stroked so I told him we had to do it because it looked like he would win endurance and they may come for him and we need him to be safe.  Ba ha ha.  Sorry, Lucy.   Honestly.  

Wendy and Beth and I put our heads together this morning and, within minutes, figure out where the Idol clue was.  YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!  WE HAVE AN IDOL!!!!!!!!!

And because we know everyone will ask, I have written a new idol clue for Wendy to share so she looks like a team player.   Good luck finding this idol, people.

"It's been seven days
and seven nights
and only once in this time
the DC island glowed bright

Take a breath
and look for loot
because with some patience
a tree bears fruit"

I'll be damned. Lucifer just said he 100% wants to take me to final two because we have been the catalysts behind all the big game moves. And I kinda believe him.

Wendy has never said anything to me explicitly but I always felt she would. Beth says she is. Indy says I'm his final two.

This means if we can get to final 5 somehow all of these people want to protect me. It also means I would have to really figure out a way to vote them out without hurting feelings. This is getting complicated.

Just read my diary over so I could cry at the typos I cannot edit and realized I said I wanted SpongeBob out and then Lindsey next.

I could be getting my wish. Omg.

Tonight's tribal was wild.

I will confess in full tomorrow!!

Hello for my confessional on last night's tribal.

That was a mess and I am not sure any amount of damage control can contain it.  As you can see, they were kinda pissed.   They were so secure in their vote that a lot of them were not even here when votes were read.  So, meh.

I explained things away to Gale by saying we wanted to test her loyalty by blowing up her vote.  And she passed, so that is that.

According to Gale -- and I doubt the validity of this -- Tweety, Peppa and Cara (and even Beth, lulz) think I am the top dog here.  

Yeah?  Then why do they keep getting Indy out and I haven't had one vote against me yet?

HA AH AH AHA HA.

I am actually 100% giddy for anyone to be looking at me like I may be someone running the game.  I have been on the opposite side of that lens in online games FAR TOO MANY TIMES so to be sitting here having people see me as one of those people is kinda cool.   Even if I lose the game, just that alone will make all of these hours worth it.

Where do we go from here?

Gale - bottom of the barrel.  Very little money.

Everyone else has got to go.  Bye.  Although I think Peppa and Cara should go first.

So I guess we see how tonight shake's out.  They are going in there all wanting to win immunity and that adds some extra nerves which can play to our advantage.

One day at a time. 

Off to work.  Bye!

Just realized that if by some miracle I make it to the end, I cannot win and choose someone.  I need to let someone else win and take me.  That is going to be scary as shit but I will lose one more vote if I turn on anyone.

Well, guess that makes my game a little bit easier now, yeah???  *sigh*

Gail asked me for a final two.  

Hatched a new plan today.  Peppa reached out to Wendy and opened the door to Wendy to join them.  So, Wendy is going in with probably Lafayette and they are gonna "vote for Jack or Indy" tonight.  I'm going to lose the comp on purpose.  Lay in bed and eat Cadbury Eggs or something while you play.  

It's a gamble but I need it for the resume.  And I think we can pull it off because they are hella unorganized over on the other side.

Well. Tossed myself out as a target and they still don't want me.

I'm still not winning tonight. Fuck it. I told the group as much. They're gonna take a shot at Beth or Indy cuz they hate them most.

Vacation day!

Time to throw this comp!