Thoughts

This whole day has been annoying and I'm not even going to talk about it except to say I'm seriously irritated by it and Truman. Now Shemar is a paranoid mess and running his mouth everywhere. 

Nothing to do with this game, but I'm feeling overwhelmed in a life situation and I'm half hoping I get voted out so I have time to deal with this, but I would feel bad for just giving up. I don't want to leave Jessica alone, but my head hasnt been here since last night. Shes' my number one, but she's also causing a lot of issues. I wish we had just stuck to flapjack and made it easy because now it feels like merge is going to be psychotic. 

I wish I could vent here, but I dont want people reading this later and knowing my personal life, so I'll just say that it's taking everything in me to not quit right now.

Oh Bellatrix, I'm really sorry :/. Hopefully you can get back to some stress-free underwhelming days! If you need anything from us let us know!!

Thank you, Morty. I appreciate you always <3

I survived against my will lmao. But I will stay as long as I can to help Team Orange. I love those two weirdos I do feel bad because they only kept me as a number, but I’m glad we were able to do a little blindside. Thanks for the tokens, Yelena. Sorry I didn’t bother to even try and talk to you Same with Zia.

I have no idea what’s going on in this game after being MIA for a day and a half so I’m fucking lost. But all I need is people to tell me where to vote and I’m there.

I’m with my family right now and this has been a nice escape from the sadness and crying. I know they’re probably wondering what I’m doing, but I’d rather be focusing on this right now because I can’t handle it.

Whats that on the torch?

I am so lost right now because of everything going on, but some shit is really going down, huh? I just first want to say I am oddly uncomfortable with Jessica's relationship with Willy. I don't like that she told him about Yimo's idol. That's some shady shit. She's playing a good game and is deserving of a win, but I'm feeling some type of way right now. 

Yimo is super close to Ruby and voted opposite us last night so that's a thing. I'm guessing this trio thing isn't really happening anymore. Now I don't trust anyone in this game and I don't know what to do. I want to be voted out because I don't deserve to win. I disappeared and now I'm lost, which means I have nothing going on in this game. 

I'm done being a moody bitch. I'm stoned as fuck so I need to just go enjoy it and not let this game make me spiral. It's been a long day and I just want to be happy.